History happened again.
The Big hooha over me bringing guoyi home.
Elders pushin us to get married, or at least engage.
Felt so cheap and worthless for me to keep "begging" him to marry me or engage with me.

Of course, every man will refuse.
What more a younger man of only 23.
reason being not ready.
not ready meaning I'm not the "Confirm" one.
not ready meaning I'm just playing the role of a standby.

Look up a marriage agency site.
maybe will visit one tmr.
Am I dumb to do that?
perhaps I'm just finding a plan B.
in case I'm dump tmr.