Thinking back on last Saturday...
i'm got one present for my 20th birthday , from him...
i thought i'll be happy...
coz i am spending it with someone whom i love...
and someone who love me...
I'm actually spending my birthday with someone who...
who dun even knows whether he loves me or not...
should've juz lock myself at home...
or i should have juz go meet up KS...
i'm begining to think if it's a mistake of me to go watch STARDUST...

now...
everyday he told me he loves me more...
he feel closer to me...
i felt everything so hard to accept...

i;m happy that i got friends...
they are so cute...
Kat and Ting called me up often to check if i'm alright...
thats so sweet of them...
few others more...

to be loved is sweet...
but to be love untruthfully...
is better to be loved...

i've been living in the dark for so long...
he is actually in contact to his ex all the while...
and told me that person is his god-brother...
he told me is a her...
and her name is dick...
i feel everything so strange...
but i kept quiet...
should i rebel?
but i'm not strong enough...

after the incident...
i have no courage to tell him i love him...
and i miss him...
these words seems to be trapped in my heart...
he asked me if i missed him...
i kept quiet...
my heart feel so painly everytime he asked me those qns...
i wish i could tell him...
but something is holding me back...

if i am to leave him...
i think i'll be having the impression that all man are jerks??
he hurt me...
so i believe that all men will...
they say women are evil...
den wat abt men...
sigh...

===LingYi===