i can't describe what i am feeling now
i'm neither angry
nor am i happy
or am i numb,
after all the
"sorry i can't make it today dear"
disappointed?
perhaps a little
coz...
i tot i can meet him today for dinner...

i got myself prepared since 5pm
stare at my phone and wait for it to ring
yah it did rang at 07:03:36pm
but i din hear wat i want to,
coz he said
"i've got things to do at camp"
and i tot he will say
"i reached already dear"

hmmff~~
unpredictable life is
and my life is never lived as i wished to
tink i'l choose to off my phone tonight
but will i do so
i don't know...
or perhaps i should...
or perhaps i don't have a choice...
or perhaps there's not a need to...
coz maybe he won't even call...

i tink i'm really numbed
but i knoe it's not his fault
i was super hungry at 6
keep on thinking and craving of what-a-fish
but now...
i felt nothing...

i hate my life
i really hate my life...

=soyagurl=
go away...or should i say, leave me alone...