spend more den 36 hrs with him...
he told me...
was quite shocked...
coz' i tought normally i am always the one...
counting this kind of things...
although i wish...
we can spend our times...
for the rest of our lives...
together...
and forever...

13/06/04...
a special moment in my life...
a moment in my life dat i'll never forget
a moment in my life dat only the both of us will share

i'l sure get lots of hell from mum when she return
but hey me go airport study yah
hmmff...
but who will believe me ...
when everyone's talking bad abt me behind me??
i dun care much now...
i'm contented with wat i have now...
juz dat the fear within still has not vanished...
the fear of him leaving me...
when everythings seems so wonderful now...

perhaps no one understands why i hate to be at home?
this cold palace i lives in is hell...
torment i have to went thru'
not physically...
but mentally...
everyone is so scary...
seems lyk the things i can communicate to
are my dogs and soft toys...

when can i be brought to a heavenly land...
when can i leave this horrible land...
or perhaps i should leave this place all by myself...
to a land dat no one can found
but this would mean i'l have to forgo my love
will i,
should i,
must i...

=soyagurl=
in deep deep dilemma