don't know what the hell happened last nite...
sigh..
perhaps is something that i've said...
but it's bcoz of what i said...
that make him speak out his thought again...

was thinking of having a joint-account with him...
so mentioned to him...
he rejected straight away...
although i said i'll save up the money myself...
i knew the reason he gave me is a crap one...
and i knew what's the real reason behind...

asked him if he love me...
guess what...
he can't answer me...
he said...
we're together now bcoz he thinks he owes me too much...
i dun want this kinda relationship...
is he juz putting on shows...
for me and his family...

nett called me...
said dun think of having joint-account with him la...
later he cheat ur money...
justina called...
asked me to give up...
kat calledt too...
but i was sleeping already...

this morning when he woke up...
he started kissing and hugging...
well...i gave him no response...
he say he can't take it...
but...
what's this...
yesterday he say he dun love me...
now he's kissing and hugging me...

before we separate and left for work...
he asked me to give him time to love me more...
will he be able to do it...
but how long will he need???

and guess wat...
he called me up again before meeting me...
and tole me that he found out that...
he do love me...
now what...
what should i do...
so lost...so lost...

===An injured kitten being left in a maze...===